All we want

 Both of us just desired the intimacy, the appreciation, the warmth and conformity. We human crave companionship, sense of belonging, where we don't have to sound so selfish all the time.

We both wanted this to go well, and we will work hard to make it happen. Some might belittle or questioned our decision to be together. And at the very moment we talked about intimacy, we both gave the lowest part of each other's expectations. We belong to the universe, all our meanings, all our struggle.

You are grateful that we met. We dug the inner core of ourselves, looking for the purity, the simplicity that brought us human together: tolerance. Can we keep up with other's nonsense? Moreover, do we need to be in touch with our inner feelings? Can we really be who we are in front of one another?

Many speculations I brought up to the table came from a long, long time ago. And the fear of failure. Had it rough with me. I don't want to say you are the first, and i don't want you to be the last. Or maybe, can't I just be so insensitive of all the things I did in the past that you ignore? They're just relic from a failed past. What matters now is the future and the malleable present. And that is you.