Since you're away

There are things that you can see clearly, only after yo're away from certain someone, or someplace. Sometimes, all we need is just a brand new perspective, a better approach, compared to how we were before. We made mistakes, and some people won't care or like that about us. We tried to redeem ourself, but somehow, the effort were unappreciated. Whatever we might have done, was it enough to fulfill the expectations, or was it futile ? We can't think about that within the ghastly circle, the phantasmal comfort zone. Once we're unneeded, unwanted, tossed away, we will know what's the big deal, what truth lies beyond those visage? A facade of kindness and safety, or nothing but a malevolent, vicious and sickening, comforting lies ?

Nothing is truer, bitter and sincere than the truth. And truth, is hurtful. No one will surely agreed upon what you think or say. Nobody truly cares about what's inside. Sometimes, they just do it out of niceties, not just because someone cares because you're someone they genuinely cared about. Only those with no sense of attachment can see clearly about how things really are. And truth will always be dissapointing. We know that things wont likely what we wanted them to be. We began to wish for something great, a sudden change in the world. But no amount of wish will be enough, no amount of hard work will be enough if we're not accepting the whole truth. 

We don't even know what lies beyond the future if we stay on a place where we don't belong. We just want a place when we are needed or wanted, cause a home is the last unchanging place that will be the last settlement we can rely on. Unlike buildings, human can deny or accept someone, and they just won't bother to ask, to care about those who they don't,see fit, or just a bother. We can kick anyone out, just because we don't want them in. From this day on, I solemnly swear that I want no part of being in a deluding places.

While we're away, truth will caught up with us, telling how right or wrong we were about something, and I hate to know that I was right all along. Do take notes that we might be wrong someday, so that someday, we might rethink all the connecting dots. Assuming that we're right all along, just like what I did, will be the most self-satisfying precaution, but the risk of being overly cynical, nihilistic wasn't always an option. I hope to be wiser..

I hope